(a 4 minute read) The problem honestly is that I don’t believe that there is a problem. It is this basic. The attempt here is to try and demonstrate what this looks like. With the hope it will make me and you go ‘hmmmm’. Then you and I may have the courage to admit it to oneself.

‘Yeap. I have a problem’. It is the ONLY way to begin…….. ADMISSION……….
ADMISSION TO ONESELF

ADMISSION is typically viewed as a DOWNER yet they say ADMISSION is a NEW BEGINNING and indeed it is a new beginning…………….. so discard any downer feelings.

ADMISSION is indeed difficult for if it is GENUINE, then it requires CHANGE…………. CHANGE in ONESELF, and changing oneself is certainly and undeniably pretty hard work. So please discard any ‘I am wrong’ any ‘how could I’ any ‘I am broken’.

The funny thing is, as I am detailing this and as I admit it to myself about myself, it is very difficult to apply in my own life…….. but I am counting on you. Yes you. You can encourage me, and I can encourage you and together, yes together supporting one another, we can take ADMISSION to APPLICATION my friend. And APPLICATION is the core for change. Continued APPLICATION then grows and grows till CHANGE goes from a NEW BEGINNING to AUTHENTIC REALISM. Stick with me 🙂

So let us begin strong begin encouraged begin invigorated begin energized so we can take on this ADMISSION head on

Begin scenario;

If I come to you and say, “Hey do you get angry quickly?  Your response probably, “Friend, I do not get angry quickly!”

How about, do you like lay into others hard?
Me? No no.

Do you boast about yourself?
I mean, maybe by accident, so I’d say I do not boast about myself.

Are you prideful?
On the scale of prideful, and excusing a slip here or there, I’d say I am not.

Do you hold grudges?
You’d really have to like cut cut through me not to forgive you, so I’d say I do not.

Are you all about me me me?
I am not perfect, but I’d say I help others in the best ways that I can.

Would you say you are kind and patient?
We can all be more patient and kind but I’d say I am.

End scenario.

Do you estimate that the above scenario is indeed the response of most people?

What about you?   Do you feel this is reflective of your own answers to these questions?

I hope your answer is yes.

The attributes in this scenario are the definition of ‘LOVE’ by Paul in 1 Corinthians 13. A ‘LOVE’ so greatly described by Paul that he begins before launching into his definition by saying; “If I have faith that moves mountains, but do not have ‘LOVE’, then I AM NOTHING.” Then Paul describes this LOVE he just mentioned.

According to the answers that I would myself give to the scenario above, I possess / have / exude / manifest / demonstrate this EXEMPLIFIED ‘LOVE’ that Paul is talking about.

But wait. Stop. Do I really exemplify it!?         I am pretty sure I DO NOT.

But, but, look at my answers ……………
I truly believe that they are accurate to how I think of myself……….

Come one Reda……… NO ONE IS PERFECT!!

I have a question that I ask you to evaluate within yourself;

Do you truly believe that the next step up from the answers in the scenario above is ‘PERFECTION’!!??

Have I set up myself to be so very well seated where I am at, wherever that may be, so that any nudging internal or external elicits the “No one is PERFECT” response? Does this extinguish / destroy / appease / quench any thirst for CHANGE in me, within me!?

The ADMISSION;    I AM NOT OK WHERE I AM AT.
If I’ve known this already, why am I still there!?

I HAVE WORK TO DO otherwise I stay where I am at.

My Lord and my Creator. You tell me how much you desire for me to be. How much You long for me to change. How much You crave for me to act and apply what You’re teaching me. Yet i stay where i am at, and feel content where i am at. May i rise up and admit to You and to myself that i need to work on change within me. Real change. And if  this is how i am with the well-defined ‘LOVE’ attribute, then what am i doing with the ‘HUMILITY’ attribute that I am not sure how to define? Encourage me my Maker, teach me my Lord, and may i take Your guidance and ACT. i love you and i thank you my Lord. Amen.